The closer you get to something....the tougher it is to see it....

if Png sees this i think she is going to scold me but...i just got to say it...

I don't know if this will help...but i have to say it before the year ends....

1) i am sorry that i could not see what we had

2) i am sorry that i could not see the amount of trust you had with me

3)i am sorry I did things with out thinking about how they would affect you...

I know my sorrys aren't wort much..but i dun know what else to do...i hope you will forgive me...i really do...

Tomorrow I am going to drink all my fears...guilt...disapointments and just about everything away...

I hope your having fun....sorry i came into your life...

wooooooo ok today was.....ok....work was soooo bring....stupid India...i got to the office to work for 7 hours a day...but i can only relay do my work for 3 hours a day..the rest slack...i mean really slack..like reading my storybook in front of the boss...haiz...sms a few people...haha had fun doing that ...played maple...o..tomoro i going gym TWICE...first with...erm.. (ok shall not say his name (: ) at about 10 am..next at 6 pm with val...o man ...my body's going to hurt...O an i am not happy with png..some how she gave me A GAY dream la....WTF...i know cus she was in it....man even in my dreams she must come and spoil everything..i swear something i feel its like her hobby to make me sad....-_-....

O nd i saw this on my friends blog..and i went ' WTH la..if i got to do ALL this i am soo going to die alone...'

45 things a Girl wants, but won't Ask for.
1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?

6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her
.9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..

11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say "I love her more than you", deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she's your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE 0ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
26. Don't lie to her.
27. DON'T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT'S IMPORTANT.

31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Don't ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If she's upset, comfort her.REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you're sitting on her.You'll never know when she needs just a little more love

man...most guy i know would be dieing by the time they reach number 21...most gals i know HATE guys how do ALL of these...I myself do some of these things..but if i gota do all...i promise you..i will crack...

i wonder who wrote this....(=


i think png said this once.....(=haha


ooooooooo well today was ok....super bored so i played with my mice...jack was fun...but he kept shitting in my hand)= .....haiz Farah was fun she ran..and ran..and ran..IN MY CLOTHES!!!!!...hahaha it felt soo...fun....and loved(=..hahaha ok i just realized having mice for pets is abit weird..but i am weird soo it perfect (: ( if u dun believe me go see png's blog..)

haiz..my plans got canceled again..but nvm..cus VAL GOT MY NEW CONTACTS (: wooooo tomorrow i am going to get it from her..ok ....cya tomorrow

musttrytosmile(=......png i know your reading this.....

Its always the same people who cheer me up...and i just want to say thx png shi hui....

This may upset you...soo please don't get angry or anything after reading....

After a day of thinking and getting scolded by png..i have decided a few things...

1)No matter how much I want to,I cant take back what i have done....soo i have to move on

WOOOOOOOOOOO party at PNGS house WOOOOOOOOOO hahaha it was soooooo fun...haha i drank beer for the first time there....it tasted like crap.....i dont know how the heck people drink that...EWEEEEEEE....anyway wooo it was soo fun(: ...payed truth or dare...haha I an PNG had like our own thing where would aim at each other for really evil questions(: hahaha WOOOOOOO SOO HAPPY...truthfully i never in my wildest dreams thought PNG would invite me to her place...to.it took me a few hours to convince my self it was not a dream.....

Anyway.......I just realized the real reason why i want to go overseas to study....its to get away from all the 'friends' who are hurting me....haiz..i dun know why but every year right before new year this happens to me....but this year..this year it really hurts...that's why even though i should not drink...i did...i just could not take it anymore...i really wanted to like get drunk and just let it all go..but to bad..i dint get drunk....soo haiz...

HAIZ..today was soo soo...went to work..had a few laughs..slacked alot(: ....haha.Past few day i keep trying to make plans for the 24th..but haiz..always people last min cancel on me ): super sad...made a new friend..a guy at work..saw him at gym....OMG THAT GUY SUPER PRO....i felt soo small when i saw him lift the weights....man..almost whold day sad la...zzz wad to do...lifes like that...



O I almost forgot....this song really...brighten my day..although just for awhile...it nice...except for the talking part...(:

ok..PNG I AM SRY ABOUT THE MOUSE THING OK??? ):

SRY SRY SRY SRY SRY SRY SRY SRY SRY SRY SRY SRY SRY

well i have decided to name the gal mouse farah...u all should know why....

and the guy mouse i am going to name jack....cus back when I was in sec 3 during Geo class we and my pal Melvin would always talk and talk non stop..then this really funny and random gal come and joined our conversation..she was sooo random and we would talk about all kinds of stupid stuff...man I failed my Geo cus of the stuff we used to talk..i would name my mouse after her but he is a guy mouse..but me and her came up with a nick-name for my pal Melvin...we called him JACK THE REAPER......soo i am going to call my mouse jack(: i hope when she reads this she remembers this (:


Have you ever woken up and feel that your life is a lie?....that most of your friends don't really know you?....that the only reason your living like this is to make others happy?....

I feel like that every day....

cute?


his turn (:


they never see a cam before...

the gal is in the wheel


she is my fave(:

WOOOOOOOOO i finally got my pet mice!!!!!!!! (: I AM SOOOOOOO SUPER DUPER HAPPY....they are sooo super dam CUTEEEEEEEEE i mean OMG cute(: got a gal with gold brown fur which is soo cool...she is abit bossy...

The guy is dark brown,really brave and always listens to the gal(: hahah soo sad...but really really cute...he keeps getting kicked out of places...he even pushed him away soo she could eat!!!! hahaha..am i placed cotton wool in the cage and they we SCARED OF IT!! hahah but slowly they loved it(;

Shall post pic of them soon(:

Anyway i need your help....help me pick names for them(:

1) Png shi hui & Jen how

2) png shi hui & Bryan

3)Kimberly & Wei chang

4) Kimberly & Ivan

5) Maclin & Jen how

6)Png shi hui & Owen

you can mix and match if u wish(: thx for the help(:

Today was fun...work was...FUN (: hahaha had alot of slacking time (:..about 3 hours...soo now I have about 2 houes of data entry...2 hours of calling..adn at least 2 hours of slacking per day (: (: (:..soo today after work I went for a movie with val and yi wen...saw TWILIGHT..it was soooo...expected..haizwell at least the graphics where good...soo i have planed my week soo i am VERY happy with my self (: .....tomoro going to see a movie with my dad...after work...soo OKI (:



Lifehouse - Take me away (acou -

this time all I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
this time you burned me with your eyes
you see past all the lies
you take it all away
I've seen it all and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away
I try to make my way to you
but still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
I've seen it all and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away
don't give up on me yet
don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet
but don't let me stay here alone
this time all I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
I've seen it all and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away
take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

All roads lead to home (:

i think....